A Girl Who Harbored Her Feelings Alone

I was very lucky because i can be myself

I was lucky not to ever feel want to be someone else,

although sometimes envy with the other

I love being myself

but sometimes i hate myself

Well, it's about love

I was so weak in matters of love

somehow,

until this moment i'm still thinking of someone who i loved was two years ago

The feelings that are still growing and developing just like the first i have felt this to him

I can only love from afar

I have often tried to forget and to find a replacement

But, he still has a place in my heart

Somehow no one can replace him,

how many times i have a relationship,

but never feel like this.

Well, we don't establish a relationship,

because we only have the proximity to one another,

but so much of my feelings to him so that today even this minute as i write this blog.

This feeling is still the same as before.

Feeling that he expects to come back to me,

but it is impossible.

I heard that he was expecting a girl who is his ex,

when i hear it,

my heart is fragile and very sad,

I want he to know that i'm sad because of it,

but finally, instead i bury it alone,

while she already has a feel with the other girls.

I'm stupid, right?