Can't describe this feeling

Oh God, tell me what i feel now!

Tell me why i'm so sad,

i really dunno what must i do now :(

feel so random

sucks heart!

Please God,

don't make me hope to him anymore!

i know we're just friends,

i don't know why i expect more.

even i know you have someone you love,

but why do i still expect you?

yes,

i knew i was too stupid to think about it.

i just can't resist all this,

all the feelings seemed to come just like that,

i also hope this feeling will disappear and not return,

because i don't want to feel things further with you,

but i hate the problems of love,

i'm very weak!

i couldn't resist this,

so i feel a deep sadness fell on.

i hate when i started to feel different things at you,

where as before i didn't feel anything.

i hate my heart,

i hate my feelings,

and i hate myself!

i hate why i easily fall in love but it is very difficult to forget.

i was created to be a fool and always disappointed.

sometime i want get someone who understands my feeling,

and have the same feeling with me,

not like now,

unrequited.

God help me,

to forget this feeling,

i don't want to feel the pain again as before,

i just want to feel the happy,

please help me,

i'm not strong to face this alone.

I need Your help :(