Hey boys you must read this

Do you know that when a boy breaks a girl’s heart, its much,much,much more than you know it affected her?

That her tears are not only to show how much it hurt but to at least try to blur out the world so she can forget?

That she thinks every sleeping and waking moment what the hell did she did wrong?

That when she looks at the photos of you with her, she tries to tear it but can’t because they’re very beautiful memories to keep?

That she can’t throw away the gifts and carefully preserved chocolate you gave her because you gave it to her?

That whenever she thinks of the “I love you” words you told her, she mutters “I love you, too” but realizes she can’t say it anymore?

That its like the whole world tumbling before her very eyes?

NO. You don’t know what it feels like.

You don’t know how it feels to be cheated, to be left, to be fooled.

And its taken very seriously because, once a girl loves, a girl really loves!

My dad :(

today is the one bad day for me :(

bener2 buruk banget hari ini

sebelumnya gue ga pernah crita ttg bokap gue

skrg bener2 udah ga kuat lg pgn crita disini :'(

tadi abis bangun tidur,

bokap gue pulang dari kerja

gue keluar trus ngeluh k nyokap,

"ma gigiku sakit lg nih"

trs nyokap blg yauda mnum obat,

k dokter dsb

trus nyokap gue lama kelamaan malah marah sama gue

katanya gue badung sgala macem,

trus dia kluar k teras nyamperin bokap gue,

bokap gue yg tau gue lg sakit pun,

dia marah juga,

dia tuh blg k nyokap gue intinya,

dia udah cape2 pulang kerja,

trus pulang2 anak lu sakit,

pusing sgala macem.

gue jg gamau x sakit

emg enak apa sakit

emg sakit itu kmauan gue apa

emg gue anak gatau diri apa ampe sneng sakit

gue jg gaenak x

dia tuh ga nyadar apa sih gue tuh cewe,

udah gede lagi,

ga mikir apa sih gue tuh bs sensitif jg.

ga mikir apa gue bs sakit hati jg dgr omongan kaya gt,

macem gue bukan anak dia aja sih,

jadi mikir gue skrg.

kayanya kalo salah dkit aja ampe kena marah kaya apa tau

pdhl cm salah dikit

ngamuknya udah macem salah gde aj

mnding skalian salah gde aja x ya

gila sakit hati bgd sih gue sama bokap gue

:'(

dia gatau apa sih gue syg bgd sma dia

buset deh

ampe nangis bner2 nangis td :'(

ga ngertiin prasaan gue bgd sih

knp sih bokap gue gt

iri bgd kayanya liat bokap org lain

bokap gue,

cuek banget!

:(

sedih banget sih gue :(

kayanya skrg blom ada yg bs nenangin gue

:'(

sakit hatinya banget banget banget!

trus td pas dia abis mandi,

dia keluar lg gatau kmana,

dia tuh slalu aja gt kalo ad msalah ad emosi sma org d rumah

pasti lgsg kluar gatau kmana

ga blg,

gue tuh jd tmbah sedih tau ga sih

:(

astaga Tuhan,

kayanya gue d ciptain buat apa sih

buat nyedihin org tua doang yeh

buat nyusahin org tua doang yeh

stres bgd sih kayanya hari ini

:(

God, please let my dad know how much i love him

i just want the best for me and my family

please God, change my father attitude,

i really love him

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Can't describe this feeling

Oh God, tell me what i feel now!

Tell me why i'm so sad,

i really dunno what must i do now :(

feel so random

sucks heart!

Please God,

don't make me hope to him anymore!

i know we're just friends,

i don't know why i expect more.

even i know you have someone you love,

but why do i still expect you?

yes,

i knew i was too stupid to think about it.

i just can't resist all this,

all the feelings seemed to come just like that,

i also hope this feeling will disappear and not return,

because i don't want to feel things further with you,

but i hate the problems of love,

i'm very weak!

i couldn't resist this,

so i feel a deep sadness fell on.

i hate when i started to feel different things at you,

where as before i didn't feel anything.

i hate my heart,

i hate my feelings,

and i hate myself!

i hate why i easily fall in love but it is very difficult to forget.

i was created to be a fool and always disappointed.

sometime i want get someone who understands my feeling,

and have the same feeling with me,

not like now,

unrequited.

God help me,

to forget this feeling,

i don't want to feel the pain again as before,

i just want to feel the happy,

please help me,

i'm not strong to face this alone.

I need Your help :(

Still about bad sunday

gue bingung banget kenapa hari ini gue nangis mulu kerjaannya

Honestly,

gue sedih banget banget banget

kenapa?

karena 1 masalah sih sebenernya tp merembet k masalah lain

ini tentang cwo

tp gabisa gue jelasin disini

:'(

gue ngrasa gue yg trlalu sensitif atau emg dia yg ngjauh

kayanya udah ga kaya sblomnya

yg biasanya bcanda

tp skrg dia bales sms pun singkat2

gue curhat k dia

dia cm bales loh knp cm gitu2 doang

gue gatau gue yg bener2 sensitif atau gmn

pdhl sbnernya pun biasanya dia jg bgitu blsnya

dan gue biasa aja

knp skrg gue jd perduli sih

knp skrg gue jd mkirin knp dia blsnya singkat gitu

am i too ugly to be his friend?

yah gue tau kok dia udah ada gebetan

1 sekolah

1 kelas bahkan

gue cuma mkir aja

emg salah apasih gue crita k dia

gue pgn jadi tmen dia

tp kok kayanya gue lebay ya sampe nulis d blog

sebenernya gue gatau harus crita ma siapa

karna ga ada satu orang pun yg terlintas d otak gue buat gue critain

gue bingung gue sedih *halah

tp emg bner2 sedih sih

tp kayanya gue aja yah yg lebay :(

hahhh

kenapa sih gue ngrasa semua org beda skrg sifatnya sama gue

ga ada yang kaya dlu

yang care sama gue

yang perduli

yang merhatiin

bener2 ga ada sekarang

ampe2 gue butuh orang baru buat ngertiin gue

ampe2 gue bosen sama org2 yg ada di hidup gue

ampe2 gue ga respect lg skrg ma siapa juga

bener2 ngrasa sendirian sekarang

bener2 ngrasa ga ad yang perduli

mau chat sama si itu

rasanya pengen

tapi udah bosen

jd ga jadi lg

mau chat sama yg lain

pgn

tp ga ad niat buat nglakuin

hahh

apasih kenapasih gue

gue gila ya skrg

-_______-

udh wajar buat d masukin k rumah sakit jiwa blom sih

gue bosen pgn khidupan yg baru

pgn org2 yg baru

:x

hahh

kok gue aneh sih

kayanya gue org plg aneh ya

kayanya gue org yg plg gila

tau deh :(

makin ngaco banget sih ini blog -_____-

ga mood banget hari ini

yaampun :(

cuma masalah 1 doang ampe merembet k yg lain

tolong deh manusia!

Ordinary Girl

Don't get me wrong,

I love who I am

I don't wanna be ungrateful

It probably sounds strange

I really love the role I play

The songs I sing

But with all the fame

The things that seem so simple,

suddenly, so far out of reach

Wish that they could see that underneath...

I'm just an ordinary girl!

Sometimes I'm lazy

I get bored

I get scared

I feel ignored

I feel happy, I get silly

I choke on my own words

I make wishes, I have Dreams

And I still want to believe

Anything can happen in this world,

For an ordinary girl

(Like you, Like me)

For an ordinary girl

(Like you, Like me)

How are you?

Hello, Good-bye

One day here, One day there

And again it's time to go

Miss popular always on the road

But my best foot forward

Gotta get on with the show

Strike a pose for the front cover of a magazine

Every where I arrive, I get high-5's

They pay me larger than life

(Yeaheaaaa)

I'm just an ordinary girl!

Sometimes I'm lazy

I get bored

I get scared

I feel ignored (Yeah)

I feel happy, I get silly

I choke on my own words

I make wishes, I have Dreams

And I still want to believe

Anything can happen in this world,

For an ordinary girl

So give it everything or nothin' at all

Get back on your feel when

You stumble and fall

A little luck can go a long way

So don't you worry about what people say

Who knows when the wind may blow

For an ordinary girl..(Mmmm)

I'm just an ordinary girl

Sometimes I'm lazy

I get bored

I get scared

I feel ignored

I feel happy, I get silly

I choke on my own words

I make wishes, I have Dreams

And I still want to believe

Anything can happen in this world,

For an ordinary girl

(Like you, Like me)

(Yeah)

For an ordinary girl

(Like you, Like me)

For an ordinary girl

(Mmmmm)

For an ordinary girl

Like me, like you....

Can't fight this feeling anymore

I cant fight this feeling any longer

And yet Im still afraid to let it flow

What started out as friendship, has grown stronger

I only wish I had the strength to let it show

I tell myself that I can’t hold out forever

I said there is no reason for my fear

Coz I feel so secure when were together

You give my life direction

You make everything so clear

And even as I wander

Im keeping you in sight

Youre a candle in the window

On a cold, dark winters night

And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I cant fight this feeling anymore

Ive forgotten what I started fighting for

Its time to bring this ship into the shore

And throw away the oars, forever

Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore

Ive forgotten what I started fighting for

And if I have to crawl upon the floor

Come crushing through your door

Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you

Ive been running round in circles in my mind

And it always seems that Im following you, girl

Cause you take me to the places that alone Id never find

And even as I wander Im keeping you in sight

Youre a candle in the window on a cold, dark winters night

And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I cant fight this feeling anymore

Ive forgotten what I started fighting for

Its time to bring this ship into the shore

And throw away the oars, forever

Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore

Ive forgotten what I started fighting for

And if I have to crawl upon the floor

Come crushing through your door

Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore.

I look to you (Whitney Houston)

As I lay me down

Heaven hear me now

After giving it my all

I`m lost without a cause

After giving it my all

Winter`s storm has come

And darkened my sun

After all that I`ve been through

Who on earth can I turn to

I look to you

I look to you

After all my strength is gone

In you I can be strong

I look to you

I look to you

And when melodies are gone

In you I hear a song

I look to you

About to lose my breathe

There`s no more fighting left

Sinking to rise no more

Searching for that open door

And every road that I`ve taken

Lead my regret

And I don`t know if I`m going to make it

Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you

I look to you

And when my strength is gone

In you I can be strong

I look to you

I look to you

And when melodies are gone

In you I hear a song

I look to you

My levees are broken

My walls have come

Tumbling down on me

The rain is falling

Defeat is calling

I need you to set me free

Take me far away from the battle

I need you

Shine on me

I look to you

I look to you

After all my strength is gone

In you I can be strong

I look to you

I look to you

And when melodies are gone

In you I hear a song

I look to you

I look to you

I look to you

Bad Sunday

I don't know why i can say this is a bad sunday,

i just feel random!

I feel no hope,

nothing can make me smile,

nothing can make me laugh.

I need God :(

really really need Him to say :

"Cheer up my daughter,

you are not alone,

I'm here beside you,

even you can't see me,

I can see you,

I can touch you,

I can feel how sad you are,

I promise I will make you smile and laugh

at the right time,

I just wanna see how great you are,

to face all problem,

to face all truth.

Because I know you are my daughter,

you can face all,

you can smile although you face the saddest thing!

I will hug you,

i'll catch you if you will fall into the hole.

I love you always!"

Oh God, i need You to say this!

I need it God! :(

Gue ngrasa hari ini hari paling random,

hari yang ga pernah gue rasain,

gue ngrasa perasaan yang random,

sedih,

bete,

kesel,

emosi,

marah,

dan ga ad seneng2nya!

Gue gatau kenapa :(

gue bingung,

pengen keluar,

tapi ga tau harus kemana,

pengen pergi,

tapi ga ad temen,

pengen kabur pengen segalanya deh!

Gue kesel sendiri,

emosi sendiri,

kenapa sih gue suka banget kaya gini!

I was born to be a random girl maybe!

-______-

I can't fight this feeling anymore!

Honestly,

gue ngrasa sendirian,

gue ngrasa ga ada temen,

rasanya gue butuh seorang temen baru,

seorang yang bisa ngertiin gue,

seorang yang bisa tau mau gue,

i really need someone new in my life!

:(

Please help me God,

i can't face this all alone :(

This is cool!

The choice is yours

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What We Do In Life

I got this from http://www.pravsworld.com

This is feel like a reality

I've been thinking for a long time about what we do in our life

...

We start by being taught in school how to become good citizens

We spend a great part of our childhood studying,

and finally we get the diploma that will ensure us "the position we deserve".

We participate to the increase of unemployment

... until we find a job.

Through hard tests we are accepted in the world of work.

We perform a good professional career filled with activity and efforts

... a lot, a lot of efforts ...

till we fall down exhausted ...

BUT we are great professionals with our valuable market share.

Time keeps on passing, and ...

... we select new targets.

We meet the sweetheart of ourlife ...

... and promise a neverending love.

Passionate hugs,

and here comes a baby into our home.

Damned night,

couldn't close my eyes!

We keep on advancing in the society,

trying to make the best of our time.

We are the stars wherever we go,

and we are finally rich.

But we need some time more to triumph completely.

GOSH! One day they tell they can do without you.

By this time, you think getting crazy,

you feel destroyed,

you feel you lost means of communication.

You realise you are cut off from everything.

Now time doesn't pass any longer,

still you are loosing it.

You realise you've been living in the fog,

in search of a silly target.

You become a walking ghost,

trying to escape your enemies.

You are the only one longing for the hours to pass,

till your time comes.

Upon this evaluation,

an idea came to my mind on how to improve my life.

I'll take things easy.

I'll try to open my heart to love.

I'll listen more to the ones surrounding me.

I'll save more time to spend it with my friends.

I'll try to travel more.

No, karaoke i'll never do,

but i believe i'll sing more.

I'll go more times to the seaside.

I'll make my best to cook tasty food.

I'll join my friend's warmth.

A bit love more.

I'll be happier to get news from my friends ...

... and achieve together common objectives.

I can't be sure,

but i believe it worths trying.

"Well, say what you want, but i am a nice guy!"

I'll co-operate clean the world from nasty people.

No harm from a glass more.

HIC!

And i hope they won't stop me,

when my times come.

God

God has not promised,

Skies always blue.

Sun without rain.

Joy without sorrow,

Peace without pain.

But God has promised,

Strength for the day,

Rest for the labor,

Light for the way,

Grace for trails,

Help from above,

Unfailing sympathy,

Undying love.

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A Girl Who Harbored Her Feelings Alone

I was very lucky because i can be myself

I was lucky not to ever feel want to be someone else,

although sometimes envy with the other

I love being myself

but sometimes i hate myself

Well, it's about love

I was so weak in matters of love

somehow,

until this moment i'm still thinking of someone who i loved was two years ago

The feelings that are still growing and developing just like the first i have felt this to him

I can only love from afar

I have often tried to forget and to find a replacement

But, he still has a place in my heart

Somehow no one can replace him,

how many times i have a relationship,

but never feel like this.

Well, we don't establish a relationship,

because we only have the proximity to one another,

but so much of my feelings to him so that today even this minute as i write this blog.

This feeling is still the same as before.

Feeling that he expects to come back to me,

but it is impossible.

I heard that he was expecting a girl who is his ex,

when i hear it,

my heart is fragile and very sad,

I want he to know that i'm sad because of it,

but finally, instead i bury it alone,

while she already has a feel with the other girls.

I'm stupid, right?

Never Let Me Go (Hillsong)

In the shadows; My spirit weak

Love broke through the darkness and lifted me

And I know you'll never let me go

In the storm in the raging sea

Love conquered the fear and delivered me

And I know you'll never let me go

Oh love in the shadows

Be the light who leads me on

You're love I will follow

Be my guide, You're will be done

Oh Lord

In the arms of the One unseen

Love carried the cross that was meant for me

And I know you'll never let me go

Oh love in the shadows

Be the light who leads me on

You're love I will follow

Be my guide, You're will be done

Oh Lord I surrender, now forever I'll be loved

In the love of the Father, You are faithful You are strong

So hold me now, hold me now, hold me now

Nothing in this life has walked these streets

Love opened my eyes show me what You see

And I know I'll never let You go

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At The Cross (Hillsong)

Oh Lord You’ve searched me

You know my way

Even when I fail You

I know You love me

Your holy presence

Surrounding me

In every season

I know You love me

I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee

Where Your blood was shed for me

There’s no greater love than this

You have overcome the grave

Your glory fills the highest place

What can separate me now

You go before me

You shield my way

Your hand upholds me

I know You love me

You tore the veil

You made a way

When You said that it is done

And when the earth fades

Falls from my eyes

And You stand before me

I know You love me

I know You love me

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Thanks God for anything

Everything that i wanna say just

"THANKYOU LORD"

You give me everything

You give me life's most wonderful, meaningful and very special

I love You so much Lord!

1st, You give me my special family,

they are the people who are very valuable in my life,

they can accept and understand me as i am.

2nd, You give me so many friends who make me so happy.

Moreover, You give me a friend who never will be replaced

Her name is Ellen

Although ever any problems between the two of us, but she is still a friend who was never replaced.

You give me friends who can make me laugh

(xi soc 2 and xii soc 1)

You gave me, crazy bench friend,

Her name is Pauline

And then You introduced me to my friend, Helen and Inge

Thankyou so much God!

3rd, thanks for introducing me to a man who until two years i have never forgotten

His name is M****** *******S

I just want him to know that i still have the same feel like as the first time i felt this,

although he haven't the same feeling with me

4th, thank you for allowing me to know new friends from twitter and facebook,

though have never met face to face, but ''m grateful because they also cared about me,

they also make me better and more cheerful

THANKYOU LORD, YOU MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE!