February 14th, 2009

February 14th, 2009


I will miss that day
Maybe i will be the people who most longed for the day!
Many people maybe said that i'm weird because i miss this day
But some people of course know why i miss this day
Let me tell about February 14th 2009
Less than a month, i knew a man who in my opinion are not good-looking
(but very handsome until today after i loved him)
I think just an ordinary boy (before i love him)
It started from my enjoyment of the virtual world,
at the time was still using friendster (maybe now facebook and twitter more good)
I found a boy in friendster,
but i forgot what his name profile
and then as usual,
we introduce ourselves to each other.
And i forgot too how i can texting with him
Oh God!
I really love him after that!
One day,
I plan to meet him at a internet cafe,
It was raining, and he picked me up with soaking wet.
Really silly, right?
I love him more deeply!
Then, one day,
I went with him and play in his home.
I'm so happy without reason!
Do you know?
During 2 years ago, maybe it's time still called "alay",
he kept my hp numbers with the name "my sweet heart"
OH GOD!
I'm very happy to know it!
But, after it,
a sad incident occurred.
At february 14th 2009, I went to a mall with friends, and suddenly i see him walking with a girl and boy.
She is ex person who ever he likes!
But he didn't say that he went with her!
I'm very sad, till i'm crying!
After it he has away
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Yesterday, i met him in a community!
The feeling is still there even after 2 years!
Before it i prayed to God, if he is to me, please let me know,
but reality says different.
At the time when someone is telling the God word,
i accidentally saw it leaning on a woman's shoulder!
At that time, i want to cry, even almost moved to tears!
Then i realized, that God doesn't allow me with him,
so He let me to see that.


*If the person who i mean reading this, i just want you to know that i'm not going to expect you back, but i still keep a sense of a very large and still as great as it used to you! <3
Thanks God, You made me aware!